BFF...they'll never show up in front of me

BFF stands for BEST FRIEND FOREVER (duh!!...macam laa korang tak tau).
I dont really know if i have one, of course i have some of close friends where i have trust on them to share some of my stories, secrets, problems, etc and these bunch of people i refer as MY CLOSE FRIENDS. But it also depend on what BFF is defined to u..for me, BEST FRIEND FOREVER is someone extremely close to you other than your family where u put your highest trust on her/him. Someone who really care for you as how you care for her/him. Someone who support you and guide you in whatever you do. Someone who not simply judge you over your wrong doing but try to understand why u did it. Someone who willing to listen to your problem and only keep it to her/his ears. Someone who doesnt have 'antenna parabola' on her/his mouth to channel out all the input you have been telling her/him...bla..bla..bla...
And its 90% positive that i dont have one and never being one to anybody..
I think its normal for women to find its difficult to have that sort of person and be that sort of person. The reason being, women always set up their priorities in thier lives..and its gradually change as time goes by. Well, i dont say men dont do that..its just women's approach on this matter quite different.
Let see, When we start to have boyfriend, we will be a bit deserted from our girlfriends because we want to spend more time with our boyfriend so we no longer hang out as much as before, and on the other hand, our friends also feel they dont want to 'kacau daun' and give us more space.
As all of us got married, have a career, our priorities will be divided to these 'more important' subjects. We no longer see each other often, we dont call or text or miss call (nak call takder credit)and i think we are ok of this patent because we all know its difficult to be commited to a sort of friendship as what BFF is defined
Personally im not disturbed by the fact that i never had a BFF, im ok with it because i think my extend of friendship with my close friends is good enough.
We do updating each other and see each other occasionally but we basically know we would never do something 'extraordinary' in the name of FRIENDSHIP.
But its different for men, they do have BFF..most of them have..at least my hubby has..and i think i would never have that kind of 'band of brothers' thing with anyone..
But i like my close friends, i have different group of friends depending on places i met them. Some are from school, some are from college and some are from work. But i would like to say thanks to these crazy babes where i consider them as my close friends (they are my friends from my UiTM years...you know who you are). Thanks for being my friend..i dont know how honest you'd be with me, how much you'd be bad talking about me, how much do u think im annoying.bla..bla..bla..but your once in a while presence and your thaughtful is what really counts. I cant wait to go to singapore with all of you to enjoy ourselves out..and create more memories there.
And for these crazy babes, being friend to all of you is something i would like to continue for the rest of mylife..and i take this opportunity to make one thing clear that i dont really like when u call me 'kak' before my name as i think most of you dont look any younger than me..(i said some)and yeah, i dont see you as someone less matured in fact i adore some of you for have brilliant ways of thinking, it just i dont praise people much and yeah i dont really give a damn on how you express yourself either positive or negative way..i just feel comfortable as what the thing is..i and i hope all of u feel the same way..ok, enough for now..Ciao